Not really... Its been a long time since I was on a horse. And, even though I grew up riding, as in every single day of my life. I'm far older now than I was then, and the ground comes at me far faster than it did then. Now buy my granddaughter a pony and teach her to ride is another story. But that really isn't what I mean. What I do mean, is that its time to get back to the topic of this website, and work on some meaningful content.
Yes, we all do it, we all slide off sideways sometimes, not keeping our mind on the task at hand. I gotta say I'm probably the worst for that. Trying to work a full time job, run this blog, keep my spouse happy, spend time with the grand child, whew! it can take a lot outta ya, not to mention house cleaning, cooking, running the normal errands required of everyday life.
Often I find myself drifting away on some wispy thought when I should be concentrating. The end result is never too attractive.
So before New Years ever gets here, I'm making a resolution to PAY ATTENTION. We all want down time. Relaxation, fun. But, not at the cost of every thing else.
So start early this year, I did.
Iv'e heard of hygge- It's supposed to be some sort of Danish relaxation that the rest of the world needs to discover, and practice. Hygge, given that the northern countries are colder than we are, is supposed to be what you see in the picture here. Some girl sitting in front of a roaring fire, sipping tea, and reading a book.
Baa, that's not really what Hygge is and it isn't solely the forte of the northern climes. Besides if I sat in a night shirt in my living room on my couch with only a pair of socks to keep me toasty I'd be a frostbite victim.
Better yet, I strive for something more. To be a good person, to make others smile, to help. To be good to animals, and nature, and myself in the process. Doing that produces a profound change in all aspects of ones life. Not only are you more community minded, your more at ease in your own skin, and for those of us who have always had a problem with that, striving for that something more helps us overcome that unsettled feeling we have always carried with us.
For the last few years I haven't been able to settle, to breath easy in my own skin. But lately, I've been doing better. I have a good job, that I seem to be doing ok at. I can pay my bills, there's food, I have weekends off with my husband for a change. We aren't struggling so much to make ends meet that we don't have time for us. Now we do...except its football season. Which is ok, because there are things that I want to do that he doesn't. I am working on getting our current rental updated with new paint, and patiently waiting to get a full month of paychecks under my belt so I can start putting away money to build the next house. While that happens, I will cook good meals, spend time outside, feed the birds, work on my furniture, and be relaxed on my weekends off. Which for me is a huge step in the right direction.
Try as I might, I can't seem to get any calm in my life. As much as I extol the virtues of taking back your time. There never seems to be enough of it.
Yesterday is a perfect example. I worked all day(my second day at my new job, at which I still feel like I'm useless). Then I rushed to the market and bought food for supper, scurried home, and BBQ'ed the pork steaks, while my husband prepared potatoes, and after everything was done, we greeted our visitors (my best friend and her husband). I quickly made a salad and everyone sat down to eat Afterward, we sampled a lovely pastie, and chatted for a half hour before the menfolk hauled in the dining table they had given us.
By the time everyone parted ways, it was 9 ish or so, where upon I flung myself on the couch for 15 minutes of television just to wind down, then headed for the shower and off to bed trailing droplets of water in my wake.
this morning I was in town by 9:15 and sorting my way through the local 2nd hand store for furniture. I'm glad I did because I found a fantastic chair and ottoman which I LOOOVVVVE. Then I tag teamed my husband who picked it up and carted it home while I did the rest of the grocery shopping for the week, made some miscellaneous purchases. Tomorrow, we have to drop of a roaster, and booster chair I borrowed from my Mom, and a knife throwing target at a friends, when we get home I have to do laundry, and sew a button on a pair of pants. Plus iron what I need to iron for next week. Not to mention I still haven't finished painting the living room so it's two, actually three different colors if you count the bead board that has to be repainted.
I still haven't found any great comfy sweaters, or long sleeve shirts for work, let along a winter coat of any consequence.
And, tomorrow is Day light savings time switch over, so we will be getting up at 4:00am instead of 5 every morning. Sheesh, how come things are going so fast? It needs to stop, I need to take real steps to mitigate the loss of my time.